Posted by Sherry , Monday, March 15, 2010 Monday, March 15, 2010
By my own accord (and insanity) I started a liquid diet today.
Unlike many of you, my doctor only requires a 24 hour clear liquid fast pre-op. Yes, I can hear the groans, ladies!
I know many of you did weeks of diet H.E. Double Hockey Sticks before you even got to the operating table and I guess part of me just wants to walk in your stylish, smaller-sized Jimmy Choos.
Really, though, Dr. E IS strict about his 5 pound gain rule: If you gain 5 pounds between the day you were in his office to schedule your surgery (about 4 weeks ago for me) and the day of surgery, he reserves the right to postpone. And I AM NOT POSTPONING.
According to my scale I'm up 4 pounds from that last meeting with him – although in my defense, their scale is always lighter than mine by 3 or 4 pounds – but I just don't want to risk it. So despite the angry cries from my stomach and the little begging voices from the pantry (the pop-tarts sound like Rodney Dangerfield and they are NOT getting the respect they deserve) I've decided to spend these 4 days pre-op on a non-clear liquid diet.
And, I'm cranky. I mean, not 16 month-old-toddler-without-a-nap-cranky (that would mean there were TWO of us in the household today) but just kind of cranky.
Today I've had a Carnation Instant Breakfast, a Special K protein water and a bowl of tomato soup.
I feel like I'm on a diet. And I don't want to feel like I'm on a diet. I want to feel like this is a first step in my 'life change.'
Reading a lot of other bandster blogs I can see that many of you track your foods every day. Which makes me think of Weight Watchers.
And some of you eat mostly protein shakes or Atkins bars. And that makes me think of Slim Fast.
And some of you eat the same foods, day in-day out because its easier to manage. And that makes me think of Jenny Craig.
See where I'm going here?
Does it end? Do you ever get to a point where you just kind of pick the right foods (with occasional indulgences) and know your full point and live your life?
I'm not scared of having that diet mentality for the rest of my life. Honestly, its the only way I've known since I was about 10 years old. I am pretty sure I could win the “How many Weight Watchers Points Is That Meal?” trivia game without even looking in my “Points Bible.”
I just kinda hoped it would go away. Its just, as I've said previously, my brain is wanting new challenges.
And I'm tired of being on a freakin' diet!
Ho-hum. Off to eat a yogurt.